Todd Dereck Taylor deserved great memories and a safe childhood something his parents never provided. He was raised by his father who mistreated and abused Todd all of his life and his mother Barbra was unstable. When children are treated this way people will act out even as adults, which in turn disrupts how we will feel about ourselves later in life. Love is the formula for becoming confident and well-adjusted as adults, loving yourself a human is vital, but if we don’t have what we need we struggle and become someone else. Todd Dereck Taylor had a big heart and all he wanted was love.
Most people didn’t know Todd the way I did. All of us grow into adults only knowing the home environment and really nothing else unless we go looking for it. Todd didn’t have the kind of upbringing that gave him emotional security that a child needs to be a confident adult. America is filled with nothing but abuse and all of it stems from “false Government” shitting on society and then expecting people to understand how to navigate through dark waters to be successful. Its a false illusion not based in reality, especially when this shit Government, murder’s, rapes and human traffics people all for profit.
My man died yesterday in his sleep on Valentine’s Day and today is his birthday. Over the years he was very ill and his sisters refused to provide help and support, but then, of course, they could never deal with their own problems, Lisa and Tina are Shit Family. The cops were disrespectful bad mouthing and being intrusive in my home, they were abusive with their actions and words, and frankly I hate the cops I hope that entire Walnut Sheriff Stations burns to the ground. I also hope Winn dies in the line of duty.
Todd loved people and was caring, his family never knew him or appreciated who Todd really was. Todd grew up in the Hollywood Hills with his father Wayne Taylor. Unfortunately, Wayne and Barbra were not good parents, they were divorced faster, than when they were married. When I met Todd for the first time, he told me all that he remembered from his childhood. All the horrible things that happened in that house on 8675 Appian Way. How his mother burned him with cigarettes. The police raid the house as a weekly routine. I remember the time Todd mentioned to me he had a vivid memory of both parents having an altercation in the parking lot at the Whiskey Go Go. His father Wayne was a drug dealer and actor, which most of the actors were his clients. Wayne mistreated his son and made Todd go out to do his dirty dealings its all Todd ever knew,
Todd Dereck Taylor was subjected to so much abuse as a child, from his father’s girlfriends sexual abuse to the worst trauma a person could have that affected him for the rest of his life. On Appian Way murder, suicide, and drug dealers were common in the Taylor home. It’s how Todd was brought up as a child, this is the reason God made him strong, most people would have never survived this. My man grew up with so much pain in his heart. No one cared, not his parents or siblings. No child is asked to be born and when children grow up with trauma (like Trump did to those kids putting them in cages to die) their lives are ruined. When men know, that no one cares, it’s a reason 1) they give up on themselves. 2) They act out.
Yet the ignorance of people like Tina and Lisa is too dumb to realize it. His sisters were too ignorant of what they refused to understand. Lisa drinks her life away and Tina pretends her problems don’t exist, and ascetically appears as if she has it all together. Barbra his mother once said that Todd didn’t know most common daily things and it was true. He didn’t have decent parents to teach him anything in life, so how are you going to know how to handle problems? However, I know now it wasn’t the only contributing factor, his dementia was an early onset, no one knew, because it can occur as early as 30 years of age. Todd had a stroke at 30, he lived a very stressful life. He never complained about how he felt and diagnosing dementia came too late. Medical doctors were negligent, verbally abusive refusing to provide proper care, reckless cardiologist and the pcp MIA.
Everyone has choices in life, but not everyone knows this. I never knew about what choices I had growing up. Rich people are just as abusive and ignorant as people who have no money. Let’s not forget the elites injecting hate and drugs into society, it’s the cause of why families are torn apart today. It’s brilliant of them, evil, but brilliant, knowing people are going to fall, knowing children will be raised this way, and knowing people will die. The man at the top and in the white house is the true definition of evil, he rather feeds his ego than nourishes the world to be a better place.
I’m going to speak about the man I knew regardless of how we met, which was a vulnerable time in both our lives, we only had each other. Families today don’t stick together at all to give any support, but we had each other and both worked hard to pull ourselves up. Todd was proud of himself as he changed his life around to be the man he should have been. Todd could only speak the truth and not hold back about his mistakes. He took a chance and was given a job as a security guard and on the side, he sold tours through the Hollywood Hills from where he grew up. I too was proud of him, he was always positive, regardless of the hardships, Todd was very optimistic, which in turn helped me as I am the opposite by nature. We could support each other in seeking balance. I remember the day he was happy as he purchased a microwave for me, knowing how much I wanted one. Todd would always do little things to see me smile and make me happy. Little things a man will do proves how much he cares.
Our relationship was based on emotions and love unlike most people, not money materialism, or lust. We spent many moments at the park talking and getting exercise, attending concerts, fun stuff to keep our chins up. We learned from each other many things, but most of all I was his rock to keep him straight and Todd was the kindness to balance my heart. Todd only wanted someone to love him, because his family didn’t care and they were very dysfunctional. When people lack respect and love, it’s the reason why individuals will act out, his family was too ignorant to understand anything just narrow mind white trash. His mom Barbra was glad to see him the last time during the Thanksgiving Holiday before his medical problems got worse. I know it made him happy. We went through a lot together, and now that he is gone, it’s hard for me to emotionally adjust, it now feels as if he was never here in my life. My only regret is not telling Todd how much I loved him.
Of course, most of us don’t realize how important it is to always love yourself first. People think if they appear like they have it all together, then outsiders will approve. Tina Zimmerman Smith is a good example of this ignorant mentality. Todd sister refused to tell his mother Todd died instead Lisa called badgering me with her abusive behavior, so I will return the favor back to both of you.
Todd’s one true passion was Hockey, As a kid he played and played well, and he wanted to go pro. I strongly believe he would have if given the support. Many of us have a destiny already planned, but how we grow up the lack of support and love, and the choices we make, steer us in a different direction. Even though I was at times selfish and upset because of our hardships. I don’t regret the days we spent together. I am glad I was there when no one else was. I’m glad I knew you…being there for me. I think of you every day that passes. Please forgive me for any mistakes I made, I love you so much and miss you. You deserved better.
The first concert I took Todd to see was the Pretenders, and then Melissa Etheridge with Blondie and Pat Benatar. Universal Studios Halloween Horror Nights, Medieval Tournaments, carnivals, eating ice cream when it rained. We did many fun things together. Hung out at Venice Beach and we had a favorite place near Roy Rogers State Beach. Together we had good times and that is the way I want to remember us because now he is gone and I just lost my only friend. Todd got so ill over the last few years that it was very hard caring for him alone. What hurts the most when the person you love dies, questioning yourself about all the things you didn’t do. I am only one person as I found it disappointing when his own family refused to be there, they really didn’t care at all. Many families today are exactly that way. Todd and I were our own family and I loved him I only wish now I should have told him more often. I was so tired and worn out from everything that happened to us in the end, this kind of pain will take a long time to heal. I just pray from Todd’s personal pain, all his life he can now be at rest with the Creator beyond the Heavens and all the Stars with much Love and Freedom.
I love you BIG DADDY, and I always will. Todd Dereck Taylor 61 years old died 2/14/2022
People deserve better. You are Free, No one can hurt you again. Here’s your Favorite Song, by the Animals!
I don’t care what people say about Todd, because if you’re going to judge someone take a look at yourself first. Why don’t you judge those CRIMINALS IN THE WHITE HOUSE AND THE VATICAN!! Corporations cheat consumers every day with TAXES and double dipping in GAS PRICES. Law Enforcement are murderers, hurting kid and criminals, they disrespected me in my own home when Todd died, but I will have the last word against all of them.
Fucking people over on JOBS and housing and for what to feed the FUCKEN RICH ASSHOLES!! No one knew this human being as I knew Todd and you sure as fuck have no idea how much abuse he was subjected to as a child. Yet it’s those at the top who endorse abuse, isn’t it? No one is asked to be born or has the choice of picking their parents. So take a look at yourself!!! When Todd died the police at Walnut Sheriff Station were abusive and judgmental, the funeral home lied to me about the accommodations. Where we lived Steve Chong manager allowed tenants to bang on my door harassing me after Todd’s body was removed from the house. This is the ongoing ABUSE I HAVE DEALT WITH!! For all that has happened, I am going public against everyone who caused me grief and harm to both of us. All those who are guilty of the crimes of personal abuse may all of you suffer the consequences in severe pain! Don’t think the sword doesn’t cut both ways, it does and all of you, your soul will burn I guarantee it!
As for my man, he was not a violent person or dangerous to himself or society. Take a good long look at what is dangerous, WAR, white man’s MILITARY, to murder every day for GREED!!! If you choose to be ignorant of what danger is, I can’t save you from yourself, but take a look at the false powers and false governments murdering millions of people on a global scale every day, that is dangerous and violent. Todd was the only man, who was never taught anything or given love like a human being should have.
Todd Dereck Taylor was a good man with a big heart. Todd Taylor had a shitty family like so many people do, I won’t tolerate anyone mocking his memory or his death! The rest of you MOTHER FUCKERS can go FUCK YOURSELVES, You know, who you are!!!!