BEING A MIDDLE CHILD GROWING UP

Advantages and Disadvantages - Being a middle child has its advantages and many disadvantages. I didn't grow up in a religious or traditional family, but that wasn't a problem at least not for me. It's actually a blessing. Many people would stereotype me assuming I did because people just love to assume and judge a book by its cover. The "white man" doesn't own America he only thinks he does as so many whites choose to ignorantly assume. Only the Native Americans are true Americans and Indigenous people who were on this land living free until the white man decided to slaughter, rape, and murder my ancestors. Unfortunately, I was whitewashed so therefore my culture has been stripped. Nevertheless, I grew up in a small town with many options and choices I never knew I had. The reason this happens is because of our structure in society and the stigmas, add the hate and drugs with so many other barriers it can take a lifetime before a person realizes self-worth and the human value I now possess. 

However, my parents were liberal in many ways, at times they could be understanding, and at other times I think it was just hard for parents to know how to discipline their kids and make the right decisions. Once upon a time, I was daddy's girl until the day his son took my place. I was quickly pushed aside, which is a disadvantage. Yet growing up as a strong-willed, strong-minded independent woman today is an advantage as I needed no one's approval. Over time my strong personality grew and so did my resentment toward the enemy. The eldest son was a pathetic excuse for male sperm, a loser who was weak-minded, fat, and lazy. As time moved on this insecure, immature prick was terrified of me and that was an advantage. This is what my discovery of being a middle child was all about. Favoritism, nothing is worse than noticing when a child is placed on the highest shelf and all the other kids are on the sidelines. Parents are too blind to realize it hurts, when making the same mistakes as their parents did so what does a kid do? A kid will rebel or act out and seek attention any way I could get it.

Of course, when that didn't work resentment was my only ally, and as I grew older so did many hard lessons that impacted my life. Those hard lessons helped me to grow into an independent person and sprout self-reliance, but it takes your entire life to fully understand everything. As I began to grow up I realized I could always depend on myself and that was comforting. Remembering those moments when things went missing or broken I was never asked what happened? Only accused that I must have done it. I was the responsible one, and the blame was shifted on me. It seemed I could never escape from being blamed for many things gone wrong in a house full of kids, this was a disadvantage. 

Family and Resisting Conformity - Parental indifference is what I like to call it when your parents treat one kid differently from all the rest, in how the parent speaks and approaches that favored child compared to the rest of the kids. However, since I was my father's only biological daughter he made it rather clear my presence wasn't as important as his first son, disadvantage. During my years of growing up, I encountered many struggles to find my voice, with two wicked step sisters trying to control me and telling me what to do, disadvantage. And the younger brat gaining approval without lifting a finger. There were times I questioned what I was being told and demanded an answer I was usually shut down since no one knew the answer. I later realized I shouldn't blame my parents for what they didn't know or had NO answer to. (Also as a woman I observed my parents repeating the same mistakes their parents made with them). As I haven't forgotten the stories. At the time of not having a voice and feeling oppression in the home, which has ties to racism people never understand this. My strong personality was something my parents weren't prepared for and this was another reason I was shut down or ignored most of the time, but it's an advantage to knowing myself and what I can do without the need of others. 

Being Held Prisoners - Being a middle child and lacking my father's affection with too many kids to share space with, I learned to survive with the skills of manipulation. My family had their own way of thinking and I started to develop mine, different from theirs I had nothing in common with anyone. Nothing in common with my wicked stepsisters. I had a lot to learn in life, as everyone does, my rude awakening came much later. Being a middle child as you grow up, you begin to think outside the box. Family conformity is similar to false government, forcing me to be at their will and knowing it doesn't fit. Fast forward to now, I am a mother of three, but the syndrome of being a middle child never leaves it stays dormant. So I was mindful of my parents' favoritism and the scars it left behind and I did my best not to repeat the same mistakes with my own children. Those memories of being blamed if my little brother got hurt which was most of the time only added to the resentment. I later realized this resentment was familiar and dormant until something I witnessed awoke it. I recall my father's friend Felix treated his daughter the same way I witnessed Doreen's punishment when her younger brother hurt himself in our backyard. Why was it her responsibility to look out for her younger siblings, as if she were the parent? Why was it mine? I never asked my father's favorite son to be born. For some reason, we girls were being held as prisoners to our younger siblings' mishaps. It may be due to the ignorance of men expecting the females to tend to younger chicks no matter what rank we had in the family. I will admit I needed discipline and education being a brat my parents were not strict when came to authority. I was given more than I may have deserved but I did work hard unlike Tonia who never worked and used everyone to support her ass.

Hand Me-Downs - Everyone has their peeves and I have mine, hand-me-downs being one of them. My mother bought me many nice things but I was influenced by the commercials of name-brand items, like Jordache Jeans. Now I realize they're not that special especially since manufacturers lie and cheat on consumers. No matter what I wouldn't wear second-hand clothes, plus my wicked stepsister's taste was a modern defect. All families have problems just as ours had our share, we just needed some education and wisdom. My parents were very hard-working people, especially my mom, she worked her whole life until she retired. Regardless I just couldn't cave into second-hand clothes, so to make things less expensive I kept my wardrobe to a minimum of blue jeans and sneakers with simple cotton shirts. Interestingly enough my step-sister Tonia borrowed a few nice dresses from me refusing to give them back. They weren't second-hand but they were mine. 

I worked and paid for what I had, another peeve of mine, allowing people to touch my things and wear my clothes which I never should have agreed to, but Tonia has a way of using people. Plus this bitch had a husband who couldn't afford a fucken thing, not even the house they live in now, since he stole it from my father. I loved my parents they were good hard-working people. They have taken the time to know this middle child of theirs. They didn't know me and resented me as I grew older, because I spoke out more than they cared to hear. I can't blame my parents for what they didn't know acceptance is key. I had a good childhood and nice home to live in and working parents. When I look back on it now, being a middle child wasn't so bad regardless of the many scapes I received along the way. So a message to all those parents with a middle child, acknowledge that child. If you point your finger at placing blame, they may resent you for it and won't be there as you grow old.

ST.VINCENT DEPAUL IS CORRUPTION

During a time of struggle, I went to this organization and came to realize how they establish themself everywhere. All through the counties and states within the US. St. Vincent DePaul is made up of white people who run the corruption on the financial end appearing as sheep but they sit in wolf's clothing. Numerous locations will be set up as a "goodwill" type of business, while others will re-distribute food at food banks as if they're helping out their fellow man. In Huntington Beach there is a location where white people are working and here is where I had a white woman (not American) tell me I should be independent. I have news for you, you cunt I am independent unlike the "white bitch" who spreads her legs so a white man will marry you so you don't have to work and go to the local church and do the LORDS WORK:-(

However, I don't need to explain myself to you white bitches. I don't have a husband and I don't depend on men, if I did I might as well sell blow jobs since men are stupid enough to pay for it. At least I don't have to marry it:-( I tend to forget white women are so much better than women of color aren't they? No, but their deluded minds believe they are. White women are fucken lazy they don't work, and if they do it's sitting on their ass at the local church or behind a desk with a soft-skilled job. God forbid white bitches are laborers as many women of color are yet white women get paid more than women of color no matter what the job entails including sitting on their asses. Unfortunately, this fucked up country never turned over the "gender wage gap". While I'm on the subject I might as well spit out the words of white people and how fucked up they really are with lies. White people can talk their shit about other people not working, or not being independent but it's okay when the white man is murdering, and raping people during the war, what justifies that? Nothing! Yet does it cross anyone's mind how war affects the generations of people that come after all that war has happened? You STUPID WHITE BITCHES think it's okay for Trump and any other white man to be a sex offender and murderers. Excuse after excuse lie after lie.

War does affect people's lives, living in this toxic city is oppression and there are no jobs in America, doing what exactly? Working at Target - Walmart - and Amazon slave labor for the rest of a person's life at minimum wage until you die at the age of 70. Yeah, those jobs pay the bills if you're living in your car, maybe. Let's remember jobs were invented so the larger corporations could endorse slavery, it doesn't matter that people are paid shit money for shit jobs in this shit country as long as it benefits the corporations and those criminals who call themselves politicians who financially rape the social security system. Politicians can take as much as they want and white people are allowed $2500 a month while the majority of people who bust their ass all their lives get fucked in receiving 500 to 1200 a month if they're lucky. The system is rigged and so is this corrupt organization of St, Vincent Depaul but do you think these assholes care? 

No! These white people enjoy shit-talking and at the same time being a fucken hypocrite in the church doing the Lord's work! Fuck you white bitches. If you didn't have a white man supporting you, you would be selling your ass like Amy Taylor (another old whore). White women will suck a black man's cock for money just ask Tiger Woods? White people do not care why people are hurting (especially when it doesn't affect them) or the problems of the nation. This organization is not a church, it's here to make money off of people but it provides the idea of catholicism and God and all the goodness to work in the churches, to appear holy and kind and giving, bullshit!!! If you go to this corrupt catholic church in Huntington Beach you will find "Egyptian" symbolism inside the church itself and two white people who are Irish, old, and racist as can be if you ask for any help such as gas or food card. Both of these asswads treat people like shit and question everything about you taking your driver's license everything short of a blood sample. However, these white people get paid for this shit job and only white people can work for St. Vincent Depaul it helps them out since their social security check isn't enough to support them. In addition to keeping the white race dominant while continuing to oppress people of color and everyone else. 

In Fullerton Bob and Barbra, another white couple running St. Vincent Depaul are just as GUILTY. What Bob is doing is selling people out. See California refuses to build housing for people to live instead the State prefers to funnel money to corrupt organizations such as ILLUMINATION FOUNDATION and give them over 5 million to build a shelter (the ad is a lie) they also steal birth certificates the intention is to strip everyone from citizenship. So what Bob does is he will give someone a spot at this institution and claim he is paying your spot to stay there. I haven't quite got the illegal term for this but something is really wrong here and these people are making money off everyone they help. Bob once said to me how he works harder now at St Vincent De Paul than he did when he was younger. WOW, exactly what did you do for work when you were young? White people are lazy as fuck and they know it. Bob is a sell-out. He thinks in his mind he is doing a great job but he supports this scum bag named Paul a skinny white guy who looks like Mr. Burns from the Simpsons. This guy is the biggest piece of shit. He is the kind of person who is a rat, a liar, and a backstabber, Paul said to me how all the people on the street are burning houses down. Someone needs to beat his ass and get rid of him. He is a liar!

To verbally express such an accusation at a powerless group of people is seriously fucked up. NO!! I am confident it's the mercenaries burning people's houses down, ask Oprah? My point about St. Vincent DePaul is the mistreatment by numerous white people, and white people getting paid to volunteer while people of color have to volunteer for free and not expect to be paid. I know the white people are getting paid and yet Bob thinks as Bridgett does another white racists bitch they are so important with their president position working for St. Vincent DePaul and doing the LORDS work at these locations. Yeah, Bridget is a cunt who works at this Orange location as she had her friend attack me once. It's pathetic this corrupt organization keeps people begging and at the same time the white race who gets paid to assist those in need get off with abuse and verbal mistreatment. White people enjoy the abuse and racism especially when they are the biggest CRIMINALS OF THEFT, LIES CORRUPTION, MURDER, AND WAR CRIMES. IT'S JUST EVERYONE ELSE WHO IS THE PROBLEM!!! Now for those of you who disagree with this last statement, I don't care, yes I do realize many people of color have become a problem including Obama (set up). However, the white race has dominated this country with Abuse for centuries and created most of the country's problems, especially through politics. As for St. Vincent DePaul, I'll be praying for the DEVIL TO GET YA!

AN EXAMPLE OF MALE BEHAVIOR

MEN NEVER LEARN OR MAYBE THEY REFUSE TO SEE THE TRUTH. I'VE HAD MALES DUMP THEIR PERSONAL BULLSHIT ON ME MORE THAN I CARE TO REMEMBER BECAUSE AFTER A WHILE IT GETS TO BE SICKENING TO THE POINT YOU JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THESE ASS-WADS. WHY DON'T YOU GO HOME AND TELL YOUR FUCKEN WIFE OR YOUR FUCKEN GIRLFRIEND YOUR PROBLEMS? WHY DUMP THEM ON ME?  IT'S BECAUSE NO MAN CAN. HE DOESN'T WANT TO JEOPARDIZE WHAT HE HAS HOME SO HE SEEKS VALIDATION OUTSIDE.

WHICH IS IGNORANT BECAUSE THAT COMMUNICATION WILL EITHER STRENGTHEN THE RELATIONSHIP OR BREAK IT. EITHER WAY, IT HAS TO CHANGE OR IT CAN'T GROW. SERIOUSLY I DON'T NEED THIS SHIT BUT HERE COMES RAYMOND MARTINEZ TALL DARK HAIRED MEXICAN GUY WITH WHITE SKIN BELIEVING HE'S WHITE AND WORKS AS A VP FOR A BANK. RAYMOND APPROACHED ME AS I WAS MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS AND DECIDED TO TELL ME OF HIS SICK FANTASY OF WANTING TO FUCK A WOMAN AND CHOKE HER OUT AS HE IS FUCKING HER TO GET OFF HIS RAGE AND SEXUAL FANTASIES SINCE HIS WHITE WOMAN AT HOME IGNORES HIS NEEDS. GOD FORBID WHITE GIRLS WOULD EVER BE INTO BDSM.

OH DOES YOUR WIFE KNOW OF THIS? AS HE BRAGGED TO ME HE WAS PROUD TO HAVE MARRIED A WHITE GIRL NAMED HEATHER, SHE'S SPECIAL. WELL THEN GO CHOKE HER OUT! LET HER KNOW OF YOUR SICK FANTASY AS I AM NOT INTERESTED. AS HE CONTINUED TO BRAG ABOUT HIS WIFE I TOLD HIM TO LEAVE AND GO BACK TO IT! HE CHOSE NOT TO, INSTEAD, HE NEEDED VALIDATION BECAUSE HE WAS FEELING UNAPPRECIATED AND UNLOVED AT HOME. WHY, IS THIS MY PROBLEM? HE JUST LOOKED AT ME WITH A BLANK STARE, STUMPED AND STUPID! NEXT TIME YOU OFFEND SOMEONE RAYMOND WITH YOUR IGNORANT REMARKS OF WHAT YOU THINK WOMEN SHOULD BE, DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING LESS THAN RETALIATION. YOU BOTHERED ME AND LATER HE DECIDED TO WHINE LIKE A BITCH TO THE POLICE ABOUT HOW INNOCENT HE IS AND PROVIDED A STORY OF A BULLSHIT VERSION OF WHAT WENT WRONG.  YEAH ...SURE YOU'RE AS INNOCENT AS YOUR SHIT FATHER WHO LOOKS AT PORN ALL DAY WHILE HIS WHITE WOMAN AT HOME IS KNITTING AND WATCHING JEPORADY.  HOW TYPICAL YOUR SLEAZY FATHER TAUGHT YOU NOTHING ABOUT WOMEN DID HE? BECAUSE LIKE YOUR DAD THE ONLY INFLUENCE IN YOUR LIFE WAS "HOW TO MARRY A WHITE WOMAN" SO YOU LOOK GOOD IN SOCIETY.

ITS ALL BULLSHIT AND SO ARE YOU AND YOUR FUCKED UP MENTALITY. HOW PATHETIC THEN YOU SHOULD TELL YOUR WHITE CUNT AT HOME ABOUT YOUR SICK FANTASY AND STOP EXPECTING OTHER WOMEN TO DO YOU FAVORS BECAUSE YOU HAVE A BROKEN MARRIAGE. LIKE YOUR FATHER YOU ARE A PIECE SHIT. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU OR YOUR LIFE BUT IF YOU WANT TO CRY WOLF TO THE POLICE AND HAVE YOUR FUCKEN SLEAZY FRIENDS TEAR AT MY SITE THEN EXPECT PUBLIC HUMILIATION. NEXT TIME DON'T OFFEND PEOPLE YOU DON'T KNOW BITCH! WOMEN DON'T TOLERATE BEING LABELED AND JUDGED I AM SICK OF THE HYPOCRISY YOU WHITE-SKINNED MEXICAN ASSHOLE! 

WHILE I'M ON THE SUBJECT ALL YOU GALS SHOULD WATCH OUT FOR THESE BEHAVIORS IN MEN I'M GOING TO SHARE WITH YOU MANY CONVERSATIONS MEN HAVE DUMPED ON ME CONFESSING THEIR BEHAVIORS AND WHAT THEY DID TO THE WOMEN THEY WERE WITH. MICHAEL HUREY AN ATTORNEY AND FORMER CLIENT OF HEIDI FLEISS TOLD ME THERE WAS NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT THE WOMEN HE PAID FOR WHO WERE HOOKING UP THROUGH HEIDI'S FLEISS

DURING THIS TIME MICHAEL TOLD ME HOW HE WAS SELF-EMPLOYED AND DIDN'T LIKE HAVING TO WORK FOR OTHER PEOPLE BUT I CAME TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH WAS HIS LICENSE WAS SUSPENDED. IT SHOWS ON PUBLIC RECORD BECAUSE HE WAS GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE AND REFUSED TO PAY CHILD SUPPORT.  HE LATER ADMITTED TO ME HE DROVE HIS WIFE INSANE WITH MENTAL CRUELTY TO MAKE HER FEEL UNBALANCED SO HE COULD TAKE THE KID AWAY FROM HER AND NOT PAY CHILD SUPPORT SINCE HE OWED HER THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IN SUPPORT, WHICH IS WHY HIS LICENSE WAS SUSPENDED BUT HE LATER SUCCEEDED AT TAKING THE KID AWAY.

THE DAUGHTER IS NOW OF AGE AND MICHAEL HAS BEEN EMPLOYED WITH A FIRM FOR MANY YEARS ONCE HIS LICENSE WAS ACTIVE AGAIN. SO IF HE WAS WORKING WHEN IT WAS SUSPENED THEN HE COULD GET INTO MAJOR TROUBLE. THIS GUY IS A FUCKEN LOSER AND ADROIT LIAR. HE REMARRIED AND NOW LIVING NEAR VALENCIA. HE ONCE TRIED TO SET ME UP JUST TO GET HIMSELF OUT OF TROUBLE WITH THE POLICE. I ASSUME HE WAS BUSTED ON PROSTITUTION CHARGES BECAUSE HE WAS ALWAYS PAYING FOR SEX WITH WOMEN. HE IS BAD NEWS AND AN ADROIT LIAR. TO BAD HIS WIFE DOESN'T KNOW THE REAL MICHEAL.

THE MAN ON THE TRAIN, CONFESSED TO ME HOW HE WAS DATING THIS ASIAN GAL (HE WAS WHITE) AND THEY BOTH WORKED AS ENGINEERS, AFTER FUCKING HER AND HAVING KIDS, AND THEN MARRIED. HE MANIPULATED HER TO LEAVE HER JOB AND GO INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD SO HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO LOOK AT HER FACE EVERY DAY AT WORK, THEY WORKED IN THE SAME DEPARTMENT. IS THAT FUCKED UP OR WHAT? THE TIME, ENERGY AND MONEY IT TAKES TO MAKE THAT SACRIFICE TO HAVE A NEW CAREER.  THAT PIECE OF SHIT SHOULD HAVE LEFT AND FOUND ANOTHER JOB BUT HE USED HER WEAKNESS AGAINST HER. MARRIAGE IS NEVER BASED ON LOVE, IT'S BASED ON MONEY AND CONVENIENCE. WOMEN SACRIFICE A LOT MORE THAN MEN DO AND YET MEN ARE NOT THE ONES HAVING KIDS. MARRIAGE IN A MAN'S EYES IS FOR HIS COMFORT AND SECURITY TO APPEAR AS IF HE IS STABLE WHEN DEEP DOWN HE IS A RESTLESS ANIMAL HIGHLY INSECURE AND MALADJUSTED MISFIT WITH SEXUALLY, DEEP-ROOTED PERVERSIONS. THIS GUY IS THE ULTIMATE SHIT!

MY COUSIN'S HUSBAND DID THE SAME THING BUT MANIPULATED HER TO MOVE TO SEATTLE WHERE HIS FAMILY WAS. HE TOO IS A WHITE MAN WHO WAS DESPERATELY SEEKING A WIFE AT THE TIME, SHE KNEW THIS AND MUST HAVE BEEN DESPERATE HERSELF. YOU SHOULD NEVER MARRY SOMEONE UNDER THOSE CIRCUMSTANCES. EVENTUALLY, YOU WILL GROW APART AND BEGIN HATING EACH OTHER ONCE YOUR EYES ARE OPEN TO THE TRUTH. YOU WILL FIND NUMEROUS COPS WHO ARE THE BIGGEST LOSERS ON ADULT FRIEND FINDER FILLED WITH WITH REBOUNDS - REJECTS - CHEATERS - LIARS AND PIECES OF SHIT WHO HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT BEING A MAN IS? ALL LOOKING TO CHEAT AND FUCK AROUND.

THIS COP BRAGS TO ME HOW HE MET THIS BITCH WHO LOOKED LIKE SELMA HAYEK (WHAT A JOKE) SO HE'S FUCKING HER ALL THE TIME AND COMES TO FIND OUT SHE IS MARRIED TO A DOCTOR.  AFTER HE CONFRONTED HER WITH A COPY OF HER MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE TO THROW IN HER FACE CAUSE WE ALL KNOW HOW COPS BREAK THE LAW AND GET AWAY WITH IT.  SHE DENIED ALL OF IT BUT HE WAS BROKEN-HEARTED AND FRANKLY, I COULDN'T CARE LESS. ITS PATHETIC HOW THESE LOSERS WANT TO WHINE LIKE A BITCH TO OTHER WOMEN OF THEIR BULLSHIT RELATIONSHIPS AND HOW TWISTED THEY ALL ARE. PEOPLE ARE LIARS CHEATERS - ADULTERS IT'S PATHETIC NO ONE IS HONEST ESPECIALLY IN MARRIAGE. I GUESS THAT WHORE WHO MARRIED THE DOCTOR TO BE FINANCIALLY SUPPORTED, NOT WORKING FOUND BOREDOM IS WHY SHE BETRAYED HER HUSBAND. SO WHILE HE'S WORKING SHE'S OUT HAVING A FUCK FLING WITH A COP. LOVE IS GRAND ISN'T IT?

EDWARD ENCINAS ANOTHER DOUCHEBAG WORKED FOR UPS AND NOW WORKS FOR DHL TRANSPORTATION HE IS SUCH A LOSER. HE WAS JEALOUS WHEN HIS EX-WIFE LEFT HIM AND MARRIED SOMEONE ELSE HE ADMITTED TO ME HOW HE CHEATED HER OUT OF MONEY REFUSING TO PAY HIS CHILD SUPPORT. THIS GUY IS SUCH A SCUMBAG HE ASKED ME OVER TO HIS HOUSE TO FLAUNT ME IN FRONT OF HIS EX-WIFE. IS THAT CHILDISH OR WHAT? WHY WOULD SHE CARE IF SHE MARRIED A BETTER MAN. IT WAS ABOUT HIS EGO HE HAD AN INFLATED EGO AND DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE A LOSER BECAUSE HE WAS ALONE, BUT THE TRUTH WAS, HE WAS A LOSER AND A COWARD. HE USED TO DEAL DRUGS BUT NEVER GOT CAUGHT HE PRIDES HIMSELF ON THAT. SINCE HE HAD A CLEAN RECORD HE WAS ABLE TO GET A JOB UPS BUT AFTER MANY PROBLEMS HE MOVED ON TO DHL. FRANKLY, IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE A PERSON WORKS THERE ARE TROUBLEMAKERS EVERYWHERE IN THE WORK ENVIRONMENT. ASS KISSERS AND INSECURE LOSERS. RATS YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. MY POINT GIRLS IS DON'T ALLOW A MAN TO USE YOU OR DUMP ON YOU!!  DO NOT BE THE SHOULDER TO CRY ON. HE HAS TO MAN THE FUCK UP!!  

MEN DON'T LIKE THE IDEA THAT WOMEN CAN MOVE ON BECAUSE WOMEN CAN GET A MAN FASTER THAN A MAN CAN HAVE A WOMAN AND THEY DON'T LIKE IT WHEN A WOMAN TAKES THEIR MONEY, WELL IF KIDS ARE INVOLVED YOU SHOULD EXPECT IT!!! MOST PEOPLE ARE NOT WORTH THE ENERGY OR TIME AND RELATIONSHIPS TAKE SO MUCH TIME TO INVEST, SAVE YOUR ENERGY AT LEAST FOR SOMEONE WHO MIGHT BE WORTH INVESTING, BUT IF YOU SEE RED FLAGS THEN SOMEONE IS LYING AT THE COST OF YOU. TRUST MUST BE EARNED AND MOST MEN WON'T SAY HOW THEY FEEL DEEP DOWN. THEY WILL LIE TO HIDE WHAT'S REALLY GOING ON. THIS MAKES EVERYTHING MUCH WORSE, BUT DON'T ALLOW THOSE PIECES OF SHIT TO USE YOU BECAUSE THEY WILL. THESE ARE A FEW OF THE MANY LOSERS WHO DUMPED ON ME! NOW I AM OFFICIALLY DONE!

STAY AWAY FROM DESPERATE NEEDY MEN. IT'S NOT A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP. IF A LOSER KEEPS TALKING OR COMPLAINING ABOUT THE ONE RELATIONSHIP HE HAD AND REFUSES TO MOVE ON, LEAVE RIGHT AWAY. HE IS A PIECE OF SHIT REFUSING TO GROW UP AND MAN THE FUCK UP!!

CALIFORNIA STATE COMPENSATION FUND

STATE COMPENSATION FUND have you ever heard of it? I haven't and I'm a native of this country which has turned into a cesspool of adulters, child molesters, human trafficking, child abusers, and law enforcement who are criminals with a license to kill. In 2016 Mirella Flores was working at this shit one-horse institution lying to people about how she was willing to retrain people who were on "workers comp", with a school voucher if they signed the voucher that was provided from this FUND. Mirella would get the money to pay for the education, retrain them for a new career,     and buy them a computer, but instead that 10,000 went straight into Mirella's pocket, like so many other embezzlers. I've already blogged about this briefly from my situation with that cunt Colleen Pratt and the lawsuit I had against Bristol Farms, what pisses me off is how this bitch MIRELLA FLORES walked away with no prison time, or that loser Salvador Franco who was the Major at the time. The reason I called this Compensation Fund and spoke with Haley is because I want to know why the STATE OF CALIFORNIA REFUSE TO PAY ANY ATTENTION TO PEOPLE CALLING IN EXTRACTING THE MONEY FROM THESE JOB VOUCHERS? 

After speaking with Haley all she did was make nothing but excuses that she was confident the lawyers knew about the problem, yeah sure they are. By the way, if you are going through a workers comp case and using this agency WATCHOUT for their lawyers, they will be scrupulous and fuck you over, they will negotiate the voucher if you can have it or not and how much. Not everyone will have the opportunity to get a voucher. Another agency I have yet to discover also provides the voucher but again it depends on their intent, and they will lie to you. These agencies will not assist you, meaning they are not here to help in the way you might think or be concerned with your problems. You must find out what their agenda is, why they are providing the voucher (all details) and their end goal, the more you know the less likely they are to fuck you over. I doubt anyone at this gross negligent agency knew about what happened and if they did the STATE and this fucked up agency have done nothing to make sure it won't happen again. I told Haley as we were talking anyone could be embezzling these vouchers again because it's so easy to do? At least it gives this dumb bitch something to think about. It was easy for Mirella because she called the agency and retrieved the money and the student NEVER SAW a dime. I've uploaded the court docs as Mirella had 27 counts of EMBEZZLEMENT THAT WAS KNOWN OF. 

It's so easy in AMERICA to commit embezzlement, so easy to commit fraud. It might be the reason so many IMMIGRANTS like the Koreans and Chinese, Armenian, and all the sand negros come here to America and open up shady businesses or buy up motels and hotels so they can live for free and commit fraud. How easy it is for corporations to fuck people out of their homes, steal from consumers with food prices. America is a cesspool of shit, liars, thieves corrupt mother fuckers, and the biggest bitch of them all is the State of California itself. It's the biggest criminal when fucking people over. WORKERS COMPENSATION IS SET UP TO HELP YOU WHEN YOU ARE HURT ON THE JOB BUT INSTEAD, THIS GROSS NEGLIGENT SYSTEM IS SET UP TO PROTECT THE EMPLOYERS. WORKERS COMP GUIDE BOOK. Once this happens to you, don't get comfortable, you will be under great stress but educate yourself and be ready for battle, tape record conversations, and communicate via email with your employer or whoever is speaking with you on the job. IF YOU HIRE AN ATTORNEY NEVER SPEAK TO THEIR STAFF ABOUT YOUR CASE, they are a part of the corruption. NEVER SAY ANYTHING TO THEM ITS NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS. THEY ARE WORKING FOR THE ATTORNEY JUST LIKE COLLEEN PRATT, AND FOR THAT IT WILL BE HELD AGAINST YOU. I HAD NO IDEA OF MY RIGHTS AT THE TIME AND I WAS FUCKED OVER BY SO MANY PEOPLE WITH MY CASE INCLUDING THE ATTORNEY. NO LAWYER WILL EVER ASSIST YOU HONESTLY OR ETHICALLY.

Listen, you might be hurt but you have a voice use it, and don't resist being ruthless because everyone involved will try hard to blackball your case because the employer doesn't want to pay. Just know as you navigate through this process you must be careful what you say and how you say it. If any lawyer comes to you WATCH OUT that person is for the other side befriending you to give up information. You must be your own attorney and ruthless I can not stress this anymore than I have. As I have dealt with various cases personally I've experienced everyone in the legal area is the enemy, they want to bury you NOT HELP YOU, it's the hard ugly truth. Keep a timeline of everything your employer says and does and employees because everyone is a backstabber ESPECIALLY INSURANCE ADJUSTERS FOR THE EMPLOYER. The entire STATE OF CALIFORNIA is fucken corrupt and people are lazier and gross incompetent more than ever. You are legally allowed to get medical help which you should do right away. It's usually with a doctor in the network but go to your own doctor regardless so it is documented. You might need paperwork for disability but call the workers comp directly first to file a claim. Not the Compensation Fund, those idiots were about the vouchers. Call the STATE and ask how you can file before considering an attorney. You can file on your own and you can see a judge on your own. Let's just say you are being blackballed, you must get the highest amount of cash out of the employer because of BLACKBALLING YOU. Ask workers comp about appeal judges because you can appeal that and see a judge if you are dealing with this matter on your own. I had no idea "appeal judges exist" in WORKERS COMP CASES DON'T ALLOW THE SYSTEM OR THIS FUCKEN STATE TO FUCK YOU OVER. YOU HAVE LEGAL RIGHT, IT WILL BE A FIGHT, BE READY NOTHING COMES EASY.