CalState Northridge, not Worth IT. College at one time seemed like the thing to do after high school to gain the career you wanted or at least to gain direction in your life. I still believe it is, but with entrepreneur rising and the internet, new ideas can be born without education from over priced institutions.
Many people have the notion college was only for kids whose parents had money or if you were talented in some area you could achieve a scholarship to a prestigious university. Having good grades and a perfect attendance with awesome recommendations was all a person needed.
Or maybe just daddy’s money to reassure your way in. Over time as the economy has changed, so did these notions, many older adults were going back to school and reinventing themselves or just wanting to go to college because they were trying to play catch up in needing a career to secure their well being. That was me. The gaps in my education are too many years in between. Now being 50, I’m just not sure if going back for a masters is worth continuous debt. Let me share my experience of Cal State North-ridge. Its a lovely campus with prices that bleed you dry, and while your attending, your still broke.
Looking for a place to live: Now this is not as hard as it sounds but it is time consuming and very frustrating dealing with far too many Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personalities. You have the single woman who rents every room in her house. Charging you for utilities without showing you a single bill. Just a typed receipt she made up on her own calculator, which will cost you $75 to $100 dollars monthly. The real motive is charging $500 to $750 dollars for a room. Not only is every student paying for high rent, but also supporting the landlord and providing the owner with a healthy profit.
This one is my favorite, you spot an ad for a $300 hundred dollar room with a brief description of the amenities, only to speak to a married woman her runs her own business. She is trying so hard to convince you, she’s here to help and giving you a bargain on the room. This is the catch as long as you watch her kids after school, feed them and of course you are responsible until she gets home. Oops.. I forgot, help the kids with their homework. I love it when people take advantage, don’t you?
Finally those brilliant ads with very accommodating prices, only to find when you get there, the rent just went up a few hundred dollars. Let’s not forget you have to pay for cable but hey, you get lots of channels on the subscription. It’s a real win win situation! Most people are going to screw you out of money to support their bills and a profit in their pocket, it’s their INTENT!
Adjusting to College life: I didn’t feel out of place all that much given my age at the time. I just think my expectations were to high and I was quickly disappointed. When a person observes their teacher behaving in the same manner your 20 year lesbian classmates do. I have to question is this person capable of giving me what I need in my education? Let me describe the “women’s center”, which of course is for all aged females, younger and older who are supposed to support each other, and work actively in creating change.
Of course none of this ever happened at least not in the way it should have. The house was once in the center of campus until a fire broke out and burned it to the ground. So it was rebuilt far off campus which basically was a 15 to 20 minute walk if you were say near the entrance of the school. It was filled with young hipsters all lesbians or at least most of them were. I could never study there because of the racket of laughter and stories of partying and who is fucking who? Which I found to be bothersome.
Now that was just one area, the Women’s Study Offices where to young girls who were clueless most of the time, sitting on their ass performing a soft skilled job, that didn’t require much thinking at all. For some reason I could never get a straight answer to a question. This was a receptionist I had to deal with before speaking to an instructor. Most of the time I could never catch a teacher at their desk, or if I made an appointment it was rushed so I never got what I really needed out of it. The advisers were the worst, lazy, lazy and very lazy!
The icing on the cake to the entire women’s department was 1) lazy professors 2) the hypocrisy and lies being told and what we were learning about racism and discrimination only to attend an institution that practices this very thing daily, everyday, all day. 3) Some of the most racist people work here, mostly administrators.
Lets not forget the students …………………..and many teachers support their fucked up racist behavior!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because they are white! An example would be. Love Your Body Day was celebrated on campus every year. Basically the message is love yourself being a plus size woman. However, the person who represented this campaign was only a white girl. That’s fine, but why can’t it be women of different nationalities? No it never was, it was always a white girl. All I got from this event was it’s okay to be fat, just be white!
All together I came to find many people who work at this school are some of the most incompetent ass kissers on the planet. It was all so fake. There was an essence missing from this institution. For the few teachers I really liked I attached myself too them, did my best and worked the hardest in their class, because I wanted that A. For those I had strain full relationships with I worked on not losing my temper since they held my grade in their back pocket. It was no secret how vindictive these bitches really are. I am referring to teachers in the department. Believe me they love to blackball if given the opportunity.
Teachers In High School
In high school I never had any support and its unfortunate a school will pass students with very poor grades, such as C’s and D’s. For this I was embarrassed, because I wanted to learn and apply so much in the real world. In this particular time in my life my intention was to earn it and use what I learned in a productive way in my life, to benefit someone or something. The whole purpose of educating yourself is to have an understanding of the world we live in and how to live in it. As cruel and unfair as it is. Women Studies is just not about women, it’s about patriarchy and how it has evolved and how it still exists, about racism, sexism, violence, crime, politics, feminism and many other areas all rolled into one.
This program is one of the hardest to complete regardless of false assumptions. Yet it should never be considered as a Bachelor Degree, unless you have a solid plan and you can quickly complete a strong masters to back it up. Let’s not forget you still need to make a living from it. If you do decide to take Women Study classes, apply it as a minor or just as an elective. the real problem is, its not a specific program. (I found this out way to late from another adviser at another school). So therefore you can’t make a living from it alone.
Graduating: My whole life, well at least since after high school I just wanted to walk with my class, and feel proud of what I had accomplished, but I didn’t. Where I found myself living (a women’s dorm) they had strict rules and didn’t care I wanted my education. I was expected to drop out, work, save money and get out. The worst day was graduation dinner and I got there so late everyone was just about gone. The reason this happened was because I was out job hunting and had to seek a uniform so far away to a crappy job that didn’t work out anyway, only to be late. Then my father died. I never made it with my class it was so disappointing I just wanted to hide in a hole. Soon after I had to find a place to live and never really got the work I needed and still haven’t. The only thing I got was debt, which usually happens to most students.
Student Loans: The only thing I can say about this is ………………………
After Graduation: I can’t stress this enough have a plan months before you graduate, so you have an idea of where to live, where to work, where you need to go or should go. You don’t want to be with nothing and no home, no money. If this happens you may not make it to your last level of education. Its not easy to get back up once you fall off. Don’t allow others to distract you, people talk big about their plans and usually their full shit anyway. Just have a plan and a back up plan. If you want to achieve a masters, then get those letters and applications months before you graduate with Bachelors.
Get all your ducks in a row, no one is going to do it for you. So you can make an easier transition to the next level. Some people like to take breaks in between, its not worth doing that for the reason that your mind is in educational mode. Just full steam ahead really, is the wiser. Choose a Masters degree you can make a decent living from.
Don’t let some guy get you pregnant or get caught up in the moment, be selfish and think of yourself first. Relationships will pull you down during this time in your life and will take you down a different path. Do what you need to do for yourself first. Avoid the parties, drugs and drinking. If your a young man, same advice, keep your mind clear of distractions and obligations and don’t get anyone pregnant. BE SMART!!!
Ending on a positive note. This program was worth the struggle to me personally. It helped me to understand many things. When it comes to racism, which is fine line, its roots are very deep. Those of ignorance can not see or refuse to see. I completed this program successfully with a very strong gpa. I have now a personal understanding of why I was treated in a negative way as a child and teenager from many people. I don’t hold on to that pain, but it is hard to forget it. However it satisfies me to understand now those questions that went unanswered for so long.
And I’m all the better for it, knowing who I am as a woman, knowing that I love myself and that I prefer to lead not follow. My eyes can see clearly now and for that I am much happier human.
Fuck everyone else!